fo altered, that I am taught to pity none so much as the Rich; who, by my Computation (after three tedious Weeks Experience) muft of neceffity have an Income of Plagues, proportioned to their Fortunes. I know this Declaration furprifes you; but, in order to convince you, I will, as exactly as poffible, fet down, by way of Diary, the different Emotions of Mind which I labour'd under during the first three Weeks Guardianship (for I can hardly call it a Poffeffion) of that fame unfortunate, Care-bringing Fifty Pounds; and have not the least Doubt, but you will believe my Affertions to be true. Monday, Feb. 16. --- Received this Morning the agreeable News of being ordered to wait on his Excellency the Lord Carteret, but fuffered a great deal of Perplexity about appearing before one in fo eminent a Sta tion, and more admired and eminent for Learning, and every other Perfection of the Mind---went however to the Caftle met with a very gracious Reception had full Proof of that Affability, Wisdom, and Generofity, for which his Excellency is fo peculiarly diftinguish'd, and which I knew before only by the Teftimonies of others was order'd to go to Mr. T, to receive the Premium appointed by my Lord. Memorandum, I imagin'd my Stature greatly increas'd, and walked more erect than usual, went in high Spirits to the Secretary's (but, as a Drawback to my Happiness) receiv'd the difpiriting Account of his being confin'd to his Chamber--denied Admittance. Memorandum, his Excellency easier of Access than his Officer. Tuesday, Tuesday, 17. The Secretary ftill fick --- paid a Visit to his Street-door about Twelve- return'd melan Sunday, ditto. ditto. ditto. ditto. ditto. O! 'twas a dreadful Interval of Time! Monday, 23. Ordered to wait again on Mr. T---; but happening to be over eager to receive the Sum, 1 haften'd away too unfeasonably, about half an Hour after Twelve, and found him asleep. Memorandum, admitted this Morning to stand in the Hall, and not at the Door as hath been flanderously and maliciously reported; I presume because it happened fo at other times.' 1-4 Walked in the Piazzas till after One, ruminating on the various Hopes and Fears with which my Mind has been tormented this Week past could not forbear repeating aloud, the two Lines of the Libel which accidentally are not more true of Mr. Addifon, than this Friend, Who, grown a Minifter of State, Memorandum, not under any Apprehenfion of being understood by any Perfons walking there, which were only a few Lawyers and a Parfon or two Saunter again to the Secretary's out of Hope permitted now to go into a wide unfurnished in half an Hour's received a returned with great unfurnished Apartment I now imagined that nothing was wanting to make me really happy: I pleafed myself alfo with the Thought of communicating Happiness to my Friends who would fhare in my Succefs, and particularly to you, who are unwearied in endeavouring to promote the Felicity of othersHow far I was difappointed will appear by the Sequel fo to proceed with my Diary. I wrapt up my Bill very carefully-yet could not bear looking at it fometimes, though not oftner than at every Street's length- But mark the Inftability of all human Affairs! As I was very attentively reading it, a pert swaggering Fellow rushes by me-I immediately fufpected an Attempt upon my Treasure looked as earnestly as I dared in the Fellow's Face, and thought I read Robbery in the Lines of his Countenance fo haftily flipt my Bill into my Pocket without its Cover- met a Friend, told him of my Succefsand the Generofity of his Excellency but pulling out the Bank Note haftily, tore it in the Middle came Home Wife- was more terrified would now be of no Value Compliments from her for my and that I was likely to be rich, Pains to preferve what I got went directly in a Fit of Anger and Vexation to Henry's Banksmiled a little, and spoke fubmiffively to the Clerk-obtained a new Bill ned 4 difmally frightfhewed it to my at hearing that it received several Care of it fince I took fuch and the like -returned returned again in great Joy fettled amicably between us. all things Memorandum, Found upon Inquiry that the ill-favour'd Gentleman abovementioned, was one Mr. what d'ye call him the Attorney of whom I need not have been in fuch Terror, fince he was never known to be guilty of such an Action in a public Way. Monday Night, 12 o' Clock. but found myself feized with a heard a Voice found im Went to Bed as ufual violently pulled till I awoke very great Trembling, when I crying Take care of the Bill mediately it proceeded from the Concern of my Bedfellow, who it feems was as ill formed to poffefs great Riches as myself-pitied her --told her it was fafe fell asleep foon, but was in less than two Hours rouzed again with her crying My Dear My Dear- are you fure it is fafe? don't you hear fome Noife there? Tll lay my Life there's Robbers in the Room! Lard have Mercy upon us what a bideous Fellow I just now faw by my Bed-fide with a drawn Sword. or did I dream it? trembled a little at her Sufpicions flumber'd but was awaked a third Time in the fame Manner rofe about Six, much difcomposed received a very folemn Charge to be watchful against Accidents and let me beg of you, my Dear, to have a great Care of the Bill. Tuesday, 24. Become extremely impatient to have this tormenting Bill changed into Money, out of a Belief that it would be then lefs liable to Accidents, breaking breaking of Bankers, &c.went to one Bank and was refused yet was afhamed to go to Henry's fo foon contrived however to get it exchanged after a great Variety of Schemes and Journies to several Places came home fpread it upon a Table to see the utmoft Bounds and Extent of my Riches all the reft of the Day fat contriving where to lay it what Part of the House would be moft fecure-what Place would be leaft fufpected by Thieves, if any should come perceived my Mind more disturbed with having fo much Money in my Cuftody, than I was before. Tuesday Night, 11 O'Clock. Went round my Houfe to infpect my Doors, whether they were all fafe perceived a great Deficiency of Bars, Bolts, Locks, Latches, Door-chains, Window-fhuts, Fire-arms, &c. which I never had taken the least Notice of before peeped with great Circumfpection under the Beds refolved to watch this Night, and prepare Expedients for my Security next Morning watched accordingly Wednesday, 25. Extremely fatigued with laft Night's Watching- -confulted feveral Hours about preferving my Wealth, believed it moft fafe in Bills, after mature Deliberation hurried away to the Bank and took a Bill for it came away with an eafier Mind-walked about two Streets length chearfully but began to reflect that if my Load was lighter, yet on the other Hand the Bill might again be torn, be dropt, be miflaid went back in hafte- -once more receiv'd it in Money brought |